My place on the www

In this season of motherhood, one of the things I am most grateful for, is my (smart)phone. Had I not had the whole world in my hands through it, I would not have been able to do even half of the things I manage. Yes it does distract from children and wastes time and sleep etc but it can be such a helpful tool to look for things you need, be inspired, stay organized, and although generally it might be considered a bit dumb or lazy to just google everything, in this season of life with very small kids, it's a blessing to be able to know that thing, it doesn't matter how you got to it.  Reading while nursing? Planning a party at 3am after baby sleeps? Ordering medicines or gifts in the middle of the night? Talking to mom on video while still in bed? I still can't believe we are going through this, we have this power, this access. It is mind blowing. I am so blessed to have access to this modern technology and internet and just wish I will continue to improve the quality of ti

Because I can't get rid of the fear of judgement if I post my little activities on closed networks, I am trying to post here. Somehow it feels like in a closed profile with just friends I actually know, that I am being a showoff or posting something directed towards someone specific. In a way i have to think about every single person and i feel guilty if someone comes to mind later that i didn't think of.People have lost family members, trying to have kids or have kids of a specific gender, working, not working, parents, in-laws, have different kinds of relations with their partners, have different skill sets and hobbies and stress levels and life stages. It feels overwhelming to think about all this before posting a single sentence or photo, I know people used to live before social media and it's easier said than done that we should just focus on real life etc but the fact of the matter is that life is like that nowadays and people do share a lot and in turn receive a l