3rd baby thoughts

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Just lying in bed after my little one has fallen asleep. He is 8 months and I'm thinking, enjoy this crying and clinginess one last time, it will be over soon. And I find myself wondering if it really is my last. But one day, someone has to be the last.

I want his first birthday (and end of infant year) to be a celebration of my journey as a mom of small babies. I want it to be something that brings peace to me. 

So now I'm lying here crying my eyes out while reading this:
https://www.mother.ly/life/your-last-baby-savor-these-moments-mama-their-firsts-will-also-be-your-lasts

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